Love is

I didn't give you the gift of life, But in my heart I know. The love I feel is deep and real, As if it had been so.

For us to have each other Is like a dream come true! No, I didn't give you The gift of life, Life gave me the gift of you. --- Unknown

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Oh the drama...

Ok so since the last post we have had a little drama.  Ok it was alot of drama in a short period of time.  So our fabulous agency locked us in with our little guy and sent of our information for pre-approval.  The next day Sara went back to check and it had disappeared.  There was nothing in the sytem about it at all. Our little man was still floating on the shared list to be scooped up at any moment by another agency or family. AHHHHHHHHHHH!  So she immediatly went to work to redo the forms and get him locked again.  NOTHING she did worked she tried all day in everyway she could.  Meanwhile I sent out a distress text to my precious prayer circle of family and friends. We all (Sara included) prayed as she continued to do whatever she could to lock him in again.  The day wore on, and we waited for morning in China, Sara emailed her rep in China and he went to work.  They had no luck in figuring out what happened or why, but he was able to convince CCCWA to allow Madison to lock his file with their agency. We didnt find this out until early the next morning.   Sara got very little sleep, this lady is amazing and truely cares about these kids and families she works with. Most precious to us, the message we recieved from her gave the glory to God. By later that day she had us officially locked in again and our paperwork filed.  Things are slow processing pre-approvals right now, what normally takes two days is taking about five.  So we have been waiting, today China asked a clarification question so we hope to get final approval on him tomorrow.  So I hope to be posting very soon that we are officially locked with him.

I am so in awe of God, this little boy is meant for us, I truly believe that. 
............................................................................................I have seen His hand in all of this. 

I want to address a few things in this blog;

*Anyone who has walked through this crazy adoption journey knows you take nothing lightly.  You pray and think and talk with your spouse through every detail.  No decision is made without peace and clarity from God and a unified decision with your spouse and sometimes your children.  We have a band of people praying for us and with us about every detail. That said, this entire thing is a leap of faith.  Faith that God will provide, faith that He will give peace and clarity. Faith that you are doing what pleases God by loving His children.  It is a scary decision and one that requires you to take your eyes off of yourself and look to God and say, God only you can do this, because I am not good enough.  So when we share our good news with you, about our children, dont look at us and say " have you prayed about this?"  because the answer is "are you nuts? of course we prayed, and prayed and prayed some more!! Do you think we would decide to walk through paying to be judged and scrutinized and emotionally exhausted, without praying first? Do you think we would put our selves through the ups and downs and joys and heartaches without Gods leading?  Do you think we would face the fear of massive finacial barriers without the assurance that the God who sees all promised to walk with us? If you learn anything... learn this... when you adopt, you pray!"

*Also, dont give me the "you know there are kids here in America that need homes?"  Especially when you have not lifted one finger to help those precious children.  Our hearts ache for every child without a home, when we hold an event we honor all of them.  We talk about their needs, and ask people to see them and pray for them and adopt them.  With that said, let me focus on our individual decision.  We started looking here in the US, our hearts began at home,  but God knew of a beautiful raven haired little girl, who is brilliant but no one knew because she had no words, and needed a Daddy an Momma to give her a life she could never have in her country.  God knew that little girl was created to be a Ferguson  So when you want to second guess that decision you talk to Him.  Do you really think we wouldnt want to go the easier route (if there is one) and have much less money due, and no travel, and only 6 months to be free of follow up visits and social workers? To have government money and insurance helping us pay their way to adulthood? GOD led us to our child the first time and He is doing the same thing again. Again... something we spend many hours and days praying about.

Adoption is beautiful and priceless, each and every child is a gift... so instead of sitting around deciding if we are doing the right thing, the right way, according to your opinion, get up of your throne and do something, anything, to be Gods hands and feet.  We dont adopt because it feels good, or it is a fun hobby, or for some emotional high,  we do it because as Christians we have been commanded in scripture to take care of them.  So that is what we will do, and your opinion, though we love you, will not deter us from that.

*There was one more but I forgot... guess that will be for later.

Ok off the soap box.... Thank you to all of those who encourage us and support us and remind us God is with us, your words are powerful and priceless.  We have the power to speak life or death to those beside us on this faith journey, ....what will you speak? 


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